Not just yet.

Posted in Uncategorized on January 6, 2009 by tanner31593

This is about graduating high school. Although I’m only a sophomore, I have a lot of really close friends who will be graduating this year. I love high school, and there’s no way I’m ready for it to end. I can’t believe I only have 2 years left.

 

I am at a standstill, and the world is running by.

The world is moving forward, but I’m too content with where I am.

I’m not ready to let go.

Not just yet, not just yet.

I’d like you to come stop time with me, if only for a day.

I’d meet and greet, and smile before it all goes away.

I’m not ready to move on.

Not just yet, not just yet.

I don’t want our time to end.

Not just yet, not just yet.

When the time comes, I hope I’ll be ready, but right now I’m not.

I’m not ready.

If only we could live like this forever, and never face the choice.

I’m not ready to not see your face every day, not ready to never hear your voice.

I am at a standstill, and the world is running by.

I reach for a hand, so I won’t stand alone.

But all I feel is the wind of the people as they move on.

I’m scared.

I hope that when that day comes I’ll learn to be ready.

But not just yet.

Not just yet.

I can’t sleep tonight.

Posted in Uncategorized on January 4, 2009 by tanner31593

I can’t sleep tonight.
I can’t sleep tonight, and I hear the gentle “tick, tock, tick, tock” coming from my clock, telling me there’s not a moment to waste, get on with the haste, for each tick and each tock will never repeat.

I can’t sleep tonight.
I replay memories in my head, reliving and laughing all over again.

I can’t sleep tonight.
I know luck is on my side, I know I’m so well off. 
I have love, I give love, and I get love.
I thank the world for everything I’ve given it, taken from it, and gotten through it.
I thank the world, in all it’s green and blue.
I thank the world for making life hard.
I thank the world because it’s nothing if not true.
I thank myself for not looking back, for playing every card.

I can’t sleep tonight.
I hear the silence of the night. I feel the misunderstood darkness.
I see the invisible.
I hear the unheard.
feel what some have not felt.
I feel truly loved, truly accepted, truly appreciated, if only by a few.
I feel mutuality.

I feel the world sleeping, preparing for a new day.
I sense the coming of the sunshine. 
I sense the emotions of the world, felt by only you, accompanied by trillions.
Now the water is flat-headed, cool and calm, but I sense the waves coming when the sun rises.

It’s a great day to be alive living and loving on a day like today.

I can hear the gentle “tick, tock, tick, tock.”
Not a moment to lose, and I embrace it.

If only…

Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 by tanner31593

If I could make you happy forever
There’s no doubt I would.
If I could make you happy forever
I would live to make your life good.

If I could take away all your pain
It would also be my gain.
If I could take away all your pain
We’d both be happy, life would be insane.

If I could eliminate all of your shame
I would in a heartbeat, nothing would be the same.
If I could eliminate all of your shame
It would be my pleasure, it would clean up your name.

If I could make all of your smiles real
My life would be better knowing I helped your wounds heal.
If I could make all of your smiles real
We would cherish each moment, and there’s nothing better to feel.

If I could make all your troubles go away
You would be so free, with no worries wandering stray.
If I could make all your troubles go away
We’d be so innocent, like children, nothing to keep us from play.

If I would have known you needed a friend
I would have been there, my hand ready to lend.
If I would have known you were going through hell
I would have been there, you have me to tell.

If you would have told me you were falling
I would have caught you.
If I would have known you were silently calling
I would have heard it too.

I’m sneaky and sly.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 by tanner31593

‘m sneaky and sly, like a fox, and that’s no lie.
I’m sneaky and sly, like a fox, and I do try.
I’m sneaky and sly, like a fox, and I know why.
I’m sneaky and sly, like a fox, until the day I die.

I’ll dodge your bullets, it’ll be a narrow miss.
I’ll cherish what you relish, it’ll be bliss.

I’ll avoid your traps, I’ll look the other way.
I wont partake in your vice, and I won’t care what you say.
I build me up when you tear me down, you’ll never ruin my day.

In one breath, the one breath I currently breathe.
It might not be the same, we might be playing a different game.
It might not be the same as the last, but after all, time’s going fast.

Right now the earth is flat
As flat as it can be.
Right now the earth is flat
A fact you might not be able to see.
Right now the earth is flat
And you’re just going to have to trust me.
Right now the earth is flat
And it’s so much easier to be.
Right now the earth is flat
And I’m kneeling on one knee.
Right now the earth is flat
And I propose that we set ourselves free.
Right now the earth is flat
And happiness is the key.
Right now the earth is flat
And it’s not easy to fall.
Right now the earth is flat
And I’ll be there through it all.

Congratulations, part 2.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 by tanner31593

Congratulations, your work is done.
Congratulations, we’ve won.
Your goal was to eliminate my doubt.
Congratulations, because it’s what you’re all about.
Congratulations, things aren’t the same.
Congratulations, you’re all to blame.
Congratulations, I feel like I can fly when I hear your name.
Congratulations, you’ve pulled me out of my former hell.
Congratulations, you’ve done it, and you’ve done it well.

Congratulations, I can’t wait for the encore.
Congratulations, I want everything to do with it, no doubt I want more.

Congratulations, because of you, I have this to say.
Congratulations, you make me think about it, day after day.

Congratulations, I’m expressing what i’ve built up for so long.
Congratulations, but I’m always singing somewhat of a happy song.
Congratulations, what you’re doing is so far from wrong.

Congratulations, now I can sleep.
Congratulations, I can think deep.
Congratulations, these memories I want to keep.
Congratulations, you will sow and I will reap.

Congratulations, because now I can no longer truly blame me.
I know your actions are real, it’s not just the way I see.
Congratulations, we’re amazingly paranoid. This is the way things are supposed to be.

Congratulations, I’ll never have to break free.
Congratulations, we’re locked up, and there’s no key.
Congratulations, with you, I’m surprisingly me.

Congratulations, you’ve helped me change my fashion.
I thought I’d write in this tone; i’ve realized my passion.

Congratulations, Congratulations.

Congratulations, my brain is melting, and pouring out my ears, amazed with laughter, so amusing it’s morphed to tears.
Congratulations, you’re bettering life’s best years.
Congratulations, you’ve got me eliminating all my fears.

Congratulations, you made me realize I’ve moved on.
I was never playing that game, I was never that pawn.
Congratulations, I’ve always had the strength, I was never in that life, I never had to be gone.

Congratulations, Congratulations, Congratulations.

I let love stick.
I let it affect me, no longer an emotionless brick.
Congratulations, you’re the beat to my happy tick.
Congratulations, together, we’re immune to being sick.
Congratulations, I am not sick.
Congratulations, we’ve spread our ways, like a deadly disease of life, and we’re never sick.

Congratulations.

Congratulations.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 by tanner31593

Congratulations, your work is done.
Congratulations, you’ve almost won.
Your goal was to fill me up with doubt.
Congratulations, because it’s what you’re all about.
Congratulations, things aren’t the same.
Congratulations, you’re all to blame.
Congratulations, I feel like I got punched in the stomach when I hear your name.
Congratulations, you’ve made me feel like hell.
Congratulations, you’ve done it, and you’ve done it well.

Congratulations, I can’t wait for the encore.
Congratulations, I want nothing to do with it, but I kinda want more.

Congratulations, because of you, I have this to say.
Congratulations, you make me think about it, day after day.

Congratulations, I’m expressing what i’ve built up for so long.
Congratulations, but I’m still singing somewhat of a happy song.
Congratulations, what you’re doing is so wrong.

Congratulations, now I can’t sleep.
Congratulations, I can no longer think deep.
Congratulations, these memories I don’t want to keep.
Congratulations, you will sow and I will reap.

Congratulations, because now I truly blame me.
I don’t know if your actions are real, of if it’s just the way I see.
Congratulations, I don’t know if I’m being paranoid. Is this the way things are supposed to be?
Congratulations, I don’t have the strength to break free.
Congratulations, you’ve locked me up, and you have the key.
Congratulations, with you, I’m no longer me.

Congratulations, you’ve changed my fashion.
I never thought I’d write in this tone; it’s not my passion.

Congratulations, Congratulations.

Congratulations, my brain is melting, and pouring out my ears, confused with laughter, confused with tears.
Congratulations, you’re tainting life’s best years.
Congratulations, you’ve got me living all my fears.

Congratulations, you made me realize I need to move on.
I’m no longer playing your game, and I’m no longer your pawn.
Congratulations, as soon as I gather the strength, out of your life, I’ll be gone.

Congratulations, Congratulations, Congratulations.

I let it stick.
I let it affect me, no longer a rock to a brick.
Congratulations, you’ve stopped my happy tick.
Congratulations, you are sick.
Congratulations, I am sick.
Congratulations, you’ve spread your ways, like a deadly disease, and we’re all sick.

Congratulations.

If you dare.

Posted in Uncategorized on December 22, 2008 by tanner31593

It’s the end of an era
The beginning of another.
But when all is said and done
We’ll still have each other.
No matter how earth-shattering life gets
I’ll still be me
Things can still be new
We’ll still have places to see
And I’ll still love you.

I’m excited for what is here
I’m excited for the now.
Eventually the end will come so soon to be near
Don’t ask me why, don’t ask me how.

We have our savings, ready to cash
Savings of a laugh, a scream, and a smile
We’re saving them up, so we’ll have a great big bash
It may be hours, but it won’t be, it will seem like only a little while.

If you dare
Only if you do
If you dare
I’ll come over to you.
If you dare
We’ll all come over there
We’ll all come over to you.
If you dare
Only if you do
We’ll all come over there
Because our laughs are due.
If you dare
Only if you do
If you dare
I’ll come over to you.
If you dare
Only if you do
If you dare
We’ll have fun, it’ll be true.
If you dare
Only if you do
We’ll lose track of time; we won’t have a care.

It’s the end of an era
The beginning of another.
But when all is said and done
We’ll still have each other.

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